Sunday, November 1, 2009

Sekolah Sri Petaling (SSP), My School Tercinta

18 years ago I set foot into Sekolah Sri Petaling, better known as SSP to us the students, to start one of the many phases in my life. My first class, 1 Kenanga. After 6 years of bitter sweet moments in SSP, I left the school with 6 Melati being my last class and did not return to the school until yesterday.

I have to admit I was terrified to go back. It was a part of my life I wanted to forget because I was fat (still fat but able to accept it) and ugly (I’m no Miss Universe but I know I am not ugly now). And yes I was not an angel. I remember I kicked a boy right THEEREEE.

But we are all adults now. Many years have passed since those awkward days and we have all grown into civilised educated adults. I braved myself and head to SSP for Going Green Paint-A-Tile Fundraiser with my babe whom I recently learned was actually in the same class as me in Standard 1.

When we arrived, we called my other babe who was there and met her. We also met another friend so there were four of us altogether there. We paid for our tiles and found ourselves a spot at the painting table. Art was not one of my strongest subjects in school and I stared at my tile for the longest time wondering what could I possibly paint on it? I wondered if it is too abstract to submit a clean white tile?

I decided to rise to the challenge and paint something. I have to say I wiped my tile clean several times before settling for the design that I finished and submitted. Once we are done with the painting, we decided we should go around the school, revisit the nooks and corners that we like to climb or hid. I went in search for 2 of my 6 classes, 1 Kenanga and 6 Melati. The locations has changed but thankfully, the names are still there. I was surprised to learn that my Standard 4 class has been changed into the teacher’s room.

We visited the toilet. Yes. The toilet because it is in between few classes and it is like our meeting point + hangout area because our toilet is separated into 2 sections. We also went to see the school’s office, dentist and the library. It was literally walking through a museum of my life. It brought back so many wonderful memories. I saw the place where when I was younger I used to main kejar-kejar, teng teng, batu seremban, zero point and many more. I also saw the place where I got my BCG shot. And I even took a photo of myself sitting in the classroom.

Then we head to the canteen. I was hoping they still serve those mee curry that I love to eat when I was in school but sadly they don’t have it. But nonetheless, we ate the fried bihun with the tastiest canteen fried chicken. And we continued our journey down memory lane by visiting the music room and the computer room that was close by. Next, we headed to our school’s supposedly haunted hall. From there I could see the school’s field and I remembered how I once accidentally kicked a ball towards my teacher’s head knocking her unconscious and broke her glasses.

We ended our school tour with a photo of us sitting in the hall just like back in those days during assembly. But I did not leave before I took more photos outside the hall and outside the school with a finishing photo of me acting like I’m trying to steal the school logo.




















Thursday, October 29, 2009

BB turns RED

I made plans to meet with my babe for some after-work WINDOW shopping yesterday. But we totally forgot about the WINDOW part and went on a crazy shopping free. My best item bought is... I bought clothes for BB and ooohhh it’s so cute because today BB went to work all dressed in purple. And tonight, after shower, BB turns RED…. Woooo~~~

I plan to go get some more. Maybe blue, pink, orange and even green…

Bye bye money...

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Love Story

I’ve been spending all my time just thinking about you. I don’t know what to do. I think I’m falling for you. I’ve been waiting all my life and now I found you, I don’t know what to do. I think I’m falling for you. I’m falling for youuuu…

I was out celebrating the end of 9 trips in 2 months that has wore me out physically and mentally. Ok it wasn’t really a celebration but it feels great to know that it’s all over. And now I can focus on my upcoming holiday.

When I came back, I continued watching the movie that I watched halfway while I was in Penang. I wouldn’t say it is the ultimate romantic movie but it wasn’t bad either and the ending left me smiling. I love a good story like that. Makes me feel like singing and dancing. Hahaha..

Let’s pack our bags and lie on the easy stream, feel the water on our backs where we can carry on dreaming…

PS: If I can have any superpower, I want to be able to make people feel this way :P (sounds carebear-ish la pulakkk…)

I'm Sorry

I’m sorry. Two words that are said when one meant to seek forgiveness. Well, just because someone said I’m sorry to me I’m supposed to forgive and forget? Even though that is usually the case, this time I find it difficult to forgive. I don’t feel the sincerity in the apology. I felt like it could have had a better outcome.

SO I’M SORRY I can’t accept you apology nor forgive you. Perhaps one day I will find it in my heart to accept you apology, no matter how (in)sincere it may be.

PS: If you sense any sarcasm, it IS every bit sarcastic because I am pissed with people who take others for granted, apologize and think it’s ok again. Because it’s not.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

The Betrayal

Betrayal can come in many forms but was it even betrayal, I asked myself. It certainly felt like it is a betrayal to me. Perhaps I was foolish to trust so blindly too. In him, I gave my trust but who he was exactly to me, I have trouble describing. But for me to feel betrayed this way, he must have been something, right?

Finding out about the betrayal was a wake up slap to my face. I was partially angry and somewhat sad too. I wish I can turn back time to unsay those words I told him. But in life, I believe that there are no mistakes or failures. There are only lessons.

To him, I wish him well. I pray with all my heart that he will not be in a position to feel this sadness that he has brought upon me because despite of feeling betrayed, I still care. I still think and pray.

“Being hurt today, healed by tomorrow… not a matter of fast recovery but key to surviving…”

Friday, October 23, 2009

In the still of the night...

I have been fickle. But right now, right at this moment where the night is still... I am thinking of only you. When you feel the gentle breeze softly brushing your skin, those are my wishes and prayers whispered to you. May you be safe where ever you are.

Sweet dreams...

This & That

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?

Drive to Johor & Penang all by myself :D

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

Didn’gt bother making any resolutions…

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Yea.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Nope. Thought in my mind someone died.. (as in that person disappeared from my life)

5. What countries did you visit?

None yet.. my trip is coming soon though.

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?

Nothing. Or at least nothing that I wanna mention here.

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Personal.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Paid for my mom’s new kitchen, paying my study loan, and paying for my vacations…

9. What was your biggest failure?

I don’t believe in failure. To me, they are only lessons in life.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

The usual sickness like fever and flue and once I scraped my knee pretty badly.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Hmmm… vacations for myself!!!

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Erm… not sure.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

I don’t let them get to me. I’m too busy trying to appreciate people who deserves my attention.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Savings, shopping, vacations and family…

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Almost everything? Hahaha…

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?

Grease Lightning…

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?

Same, thinner, same.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Nothing… I’m doing everything that I want to do.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Travelling. Ok crazy I know… but I’ve been traveling 9 times in the past 2 months so yea I wish I can travel a lil less because I am tired.

20. How will you spend Christmas 2009?

Not sure.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?

Yes.

22. What was your favorite TV program?

ANTM, Gossip Girl…

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

I don’t bother hating people. Like I said, I don’t waste my time on people.

24. What was the best book you read?

Sweet Nothings… (but not in 2009)

25. What was the best club so far that you have been too?

I don’t do clubs…

26. What did you want and got?

Vacations!! One more is coming soon…

27. What did you want and have not got?

I want an imperfect someone who is perfect for me but I go nothing yet thus far…

28. What was your favorite film this year?

Hmmm… I don’t remember.

29. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?

Just dinner with closed friends and turned 2* :P

30. What one thing will make your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Him. (I feel bad because as I said him I had a few hims in mind. And these hims are not even a thing.)

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?

Hide fat + slimming effect :P

32. What keeps you sane?

Songs, writing laughing and crying…

33. Which celebrity/public figure do you fancy the most?

Ed Westwick

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

None.

35. Who do you miss?

Him… oh shucks again I see a few hims in my mind. I’m becoming fickle… darn temptations. Oh well, I’m single still so I’m not obligated to commit to one him.

36. Who was the best new person you met?

It’s hard to pick one because they are all best in their own way.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009 or are still learning.

Tell when I figure this out.

38. Tag 4 people to do this 2009 round up well almost round up.

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